Well, only a few familiar faces remain. Songwriter, Worship Leader, Front man, Lead singer, Leader of the band… almost 30 years have gone by. Touring, camps, events, clubs, bars, stadiums, churches, middle-of-no-where fields; I’ve played a lot of places. Played with some great musicians. Many great friends and good memories.
Now I have to “…leave it on the shelf, leave it on the page that has been turned already and put up on the wall of memory.” That’s a line from my song I hope to release in a month from now. When I wrote those lyrics a few years ago, it was about something else. Now, it has the weight of an additional meaning. My 40’s are quickly coming to a close. Even with all the music I have been a part of, it feels like I should have done more. Things just never seemed to fall into place, but I also made decisions that were right for my family. Sometimes you have to trade in a dream because someone else’s life depends on it.
I knew about 4 or 5 years ago I’d be here. Setting up a new website, focused on creating new solo material, and possibly creating a new band, a new path. Perhaps even take a swing at producing and helping other artists develop a little piece of their dream. Still, it was hard knowing the band my friends and I had built would be coming to an end… we didn’t even officially end it. We just stopped. Peoples lives were moving in different directions. Maybe it was easier to leave it alone and see what might be down the road. Like if we didn’t say it was over, it will just live out there on its own.
The music will. I’ll make sure it stays out there.
So I look to my right and my left and there’s not much of a team there anymore. People move on. The ones who remain will keep moving with me. “Kyrie, eléison” (“Lord, have mercy”) as we travel this road. I’m not really alone, even though it may feel that way. For some reason it’s been my job to be the person who pushes forward.
So here’s to starting something new with pieces of the old. Never be afraid to try again!